We have been remarkably preoccupied this week and the stress is beginning to show. Monday of next week has taken on enormous proportions because it is a big day for us. On Monday we have two separate events that will influence, impact, shape, change, and a dozen more verbs, the future of this family.
On Monday my sister-in-law, my husband’s only sibling, will be in our local hospital undergoing surgery to remove a cancerous growth. Also on Monday, my husband will be at the same hospital having a CT Scan to determine how he is responding to his chemotherapy treatments. Together these two events have become the sole focus of our energy. The days can’t go fast enough until we are on the other side, until the surgery is over, the scan completed and the results are in. Regardless of the outcome, I am sure that more chemotherapy is in the future – which is a whole lot more palatable for my husband if it is working versus not. For my sister-in-law the indication is that chemotherapy will be a prescribed treatment – let’s hope that the surgery is successful and the chemo required is minimal.
Even though worrying accomplishes nothing I find that all I do is wonder about what Monday will bring. For my husband the CT Scan will have one of four outcomes: 1) the cancer has shrunk; 2) the cancer has stopped growing; 3) the cancer is still growing but has slowed its growth; and 4) the cancer is still aggressively growing. I spoke with our GP today and she wanted me to recognize that 1, 2 and 3 were all wins. Number 3 she likened to a car putting on the brakes, so she wanted me to see it for what it was – a good outcome. Whatever the outcome is, we will deal with it.
For my sister-in-law the surgeon needs to get in there and remove the tumor. Once they operate they can better assess what is going on. Optimally they are able to remove the tumor and there are no surprises in the depth of it (which is the unknown variable). During surgery the doctor will also be able to assess the proximate lymph nodes to ensure they are healthy and robust. So the results and findings of the surgery will determine the treatment path she is assigned.
For me – I am a little distracted and worried – just like the rest of the family. Monday looms large and there’s not a darn thing we can do about it.